I Am a Runner Too

"As an athlete, when you least expect it, you may find yourself standing on the threshold of an accomplishment so monumental that it strikes fear into your soul. You must stand ready, at any moment, to face the unknown. You must be ready to walk boldly through the wall of uncertainty." - John Bingham

I am a runner. I am a slow runner but I can run far. My marathon adventure will be a story that I will be sharing on this blog sometime soon. Running is not easy for me, I carry a lot of extra weight and I am slow so I really have to get outside of myself and decide I don't care what others think.

Don't I get to run in a beautiful world!

Today I went on a run, it was my first outside run in quite a while because of the health issues and the depression. It took some bravery to get out there and I did 45 second run/walk intervals. As soon as my feet hit the road my mental started feeling better (the physical always hurts when running but I think that's part of the point). It was cold here, about 10* and running was hard. I came to a crossroads, I had a choice, I could take the road that would be mostly flat for the next mile of my run or I could take the road that was uphill. I almost chose the flat road but realized if I did that I would avoid the uphill but I would also miss the fun downhill that would come on the other side of the uphill. As I made the choice to take the uphill route the thought occurred to me that life is like this too; I would love to avoid the hard, uphill portions of my life. I'd love to not have to fight this depression but if I didn't fight through this I wouldn't know the true joy. I appreciate the few days or moments that I feel happiness, peace and joy now in a way that I've never appreciated them before.

"...the cavity which suffering carves into our souls will one day also be the receptacle of joy." -Neal A Maxwell